If you follow me on twitter, or read my weekly pregnancy post, you know that I have been spotting.  And it’s been majorly stressing me out.  Obviously.

The great news is, the baby is fantastic.  Almost a little too fantastic thanks to the OJ I absentmindedly drank on the way to the appointment.  S/he was bouncing and dancing and waving and getting frustrated and just wouldn’t be still long enough for a good picture.  Which would mean after three ultrasounds I still don’t have a great ultrasound photo.

The doctor believes that the bleeding is coming from my cervix, which at this point means no harm to the baby.  My cervix is still exactly how it should be, but the bleeding probably won’t stop any time soon.  If it doesn’t stop towards the end of the pregnancy, I’ll probably get put on bed rest.  And while that’s far from ideal, its something I’m not really allowing myself to think too much about right now.

At least I know what’s going on in there, and hopefully this is the last scary situation we’ll have this pregnancy.  Thank you so much for your prayers and thoughts!!!!

I will work on getting the {not clear at all} ultrasound uploaded so I can share it this weekend!!!

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Week 11 - October 22nd, 2011

This week has been, trying.  I spotted for about a day at 9 weeks.  This week brought the spotting back and it hasn’t gone away as quickly.  I have an appointment this coming week, we are all praying for good news.  It is a constant thought in the back of my mind that the fact that I feel so different with this pregnancy could mean that something is wrong.  It could also just mean that I just got lucky and I’m not sick.  I go in on Wednesday, and have been told I’ll get an ultrasound then.  And while Wednesday isn’t far, it feels like forever from this moment.

This pregnancy has also coinsided with a totally different reference of time.  When I was pregnant with Sophia I could think about being pregnant all the time.  I could day dream away the day about what she would look like, what her personality would be like..all sorts of things about our future with the wee pun’kin.   This time that is just not an option.  With Cody out of town, I am busy.  Three days a week I am getting ready for an appointment for Sophia, going to the appointment, coming back from the appointment.  Those 3 days revolve around that.  And then the other 4 days I spend trying to take it as easy as possible {you know, thanks to the spotting}, trying to make sure Sophia doesn’t feel neglected, and trying to keep the house from totally falling apart in the midst of this 1st tri exhaustion.  I find my thoughts about this pregnancy now are in the silent prayers I say that everything is ok.  The moments between doing this or that where I tell this baby that, while I may not buy them a pony, I am not above bribing them to be ok in there.  But the busy days to mean that the days, while they appear to drag on at the time, are flying by.  How is it I am already 11 weeks?  I feel like I just watched 2 pink lines appear on a pregnancy test.

At 11 weeks the baby is the size of a fig.  Photo Source: Baby Center.

How Far Along?  11 weeks

Maternity Clothes? Jeans yes.  Tops?  I have a couple.  I can get away with regular tops as long as they are long enough to cover the maternity panel of the jeans.

Weight Gain? 3 pounds.  It came on suddenly.  This is what happens when you can stop eating and you aren’t puking.

Stretch Marks? You must mean new ones. Since I have PLENTY of not-new ones.  Surely this pregnancy won’t NEED to add any more. (I will leave this answer up until I have any new stretch marks.  And I’ll keep hoping I never do!)

Sleep? Oh sleep.  Sometimes it’s wonderful.  Sometimes it’s horrible.  It really is the luck of the draw.

Best Moment of the Week?  I don’t know.  It’s been a rough week.  More spotting.  But I have felt some movement, which has helped calm my nerves

Movement? I believe so.  A few times, in the same spot…exactly like I remember it previously.  I take that as a good sign.

Gender?  Who knows.  Many boy guesses.  Some girl guesses.  I refuse to even guess.  We have names picked out that I love, so I will probably be sad not to get to use one of the names more than anything.

What I miss? Energy.

Symptoms: I’m so tired.  I wake up tired, I am tired all day.  It’s just…exhausting.  I am banking on my energy returning in a couple of weeks.  I have a lot of things I’ve let slide around the house that need to be taken care of.

What I’m looking forward to? 2nd tri energy.  I am so so tired. {see}

Weekly Wisdom:  Try to stay sane.  The spotting can easily make one lose their mind.  I am just trying to stay sane.

Milestones: Another week down!

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Squish at 9 weeks 2 days.

Look at me slapping up an unedited image.  I could have {should have} probably cropped and edited this.  But the truth is I’m so exhausted that the idea of fighting with photoshop right now is just NOT HAPPENING.  Can we note how bad I am at taking weekly pictures.  I always have great resolve, and then her nap time comes.  And all I can think about is catching a couple of hours of z’s myself.  GROWING A HUMAN IS HARD WORK Y’ALL!!!  But seriously.  I was going to take one today, but then realized it’s Tuesday and the week is almost half over and so I might as well wait until Saturday when I’m 11 weeks.  I swear I will take one this weekend.  Cross my heart.

So, the ultra sound image.  Yes, it’s a photo of a computer screen image.  Because the ER’s here won’t give you a print out {probably to keep people from faking problems to get an u/s.  Sounds totally nuts, but I’m telling you….you read things on those pregnancy message boards that sometimes shock you}.  I however did have a legit problem.  I started cramping last weekend and spotting on Monday afternoon {isn’t it just Murphey’s law that you start spotting when your dr’s office is closed or about to close?!}.  Luckily everything looks fine, a small tear.  Nothing too horrible.  I was told to *try* to not pick up my massive toddler anymore.  And I have been trying.  For the most part I don’t have to pick her up.  She get upstairs and into bed by herself.  I only have to pick her up when getting in and out of the car, and in and out of shopping carts.  If I start cramping we just don’t go anywhere…that solves that problem all together!  I have another appointment at the end of the month and I’m hoping when they do the u/s they will see that everything is healed and well in the uterus.  It was amazing to hear Squish’s heartbeat again, but I could do with out being scared.

When I was driving to the ER I started thinking about all the ways that this pregnancy is SO different from the other’s I’ve had.  And tears started coming to my eyes.  The what if’s flooded my mind.  The moment the tech turned up the volume so I could hear the heart beat I started crying so hard I was shaking.  What a relief.

At 10 weeks the baby is the size of a kumquat.  Photo Source: Baby Center.

How Far Along?  10 weeks {ok Im filling this out at 10 weeks 3 days}

Maternity Clothes? Jeans yes.  Tops?  I have a couple.  I can get away with regular tops as long as they are long enough to cover the maternity panel of the jeans.

Weight Gain? I wasn’t going to weigh myself.  I ate a TON this past weekend and I was sure it was all going to catch up with me.  But Monday morning I weighed myself anyways, and I was exactly where I was the previous week.  That makes the total weight gain .5 pounds.  I can hardly believe it with the amount of food I’m consuming.

Stretch Marks? You must mean new ones. Since I have PLENTY of not-new ones.  Surely this pregnancy won’t NEED to add any more. (I will leave this answer up until I have any new stretch marks.  And I’ll keep hoping I never do!)

Sleep? It’s so difficult to fall asleep at night.  And this week Sophia has been waking me up an hour early.  I am painfully tired come 3 pm.  But the moment I lay in bed I can’t fall asleep.  To help this I’ve tried to stay away from the internet at night.  But it hasn’t really helped.

Best Moment of the Week?  Finding out everything was ok after the scare last week.  What a huge relief.

Movement? Nope.

Gender?  Who knows.  Many boy guesses.  Some girl guesses.  I refuse to even guess.

What I miss? Energy.

Symptoms: I’m tired ALL THE TIME.  I’m hungry ALL THE TIME.  Sometimes I don’t feel good.  But it doesn’t last long, and I think it’s usually from eating too much too fast or from needing to eat.  Everything revolves around food.

What I’m looking forward to? 2nd tri energy.  I am so so tired. {ditto from last week}

Weekly Wisdom:  Don’t decide that being in 1st tri while your husband is out of town for 3 months is a good idea.  It’s not.  At all.

Milestones: Another week down!

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Week 9 - October 8th, 2011

This picture is awful.  No really, and not in that fishing for compliments sort of way.  But in the sort of way that the camera wasn’t high enough and it looks like all the BBQ and Cocoa Krispies have gone to my face thanks to a bad angle.  I assure you they haven’t.  Especially since I’ve managed to gain only about 1/2 a pound.  And that can clearly be located in my belly region. I should have taken a picture of the setup I used the first time I took a belly picture.  So I could have the same height with each picture.  I think that’s the issue.  Oh well, I {hopefully} have many many weeks to work on getting this right.  With that…do you know how difficult it is to look natural and normal when you’re looking at a camera propped up on your table with Tupperware boxes that hold your child’s Little People and Puzzle pieces?  I tried to practice in a mirror first, hopefully I get back to looking normal.  How in the world did week 4′s picture turn out so well?!  I may never know.

At 9 weeks the baby is the size of a grape. Photo Source: Baby Center.

How Far Along?  9 weeks

Maternity Clothes? I don’t even bother trying to wear my regular jeans.  And while I *could* pull it off with a belly band…why bother?  It’s really not as comfortable as maternity pants and it is more of a pain when trying to pick up and move around a massive 2 year old.

Weight Gain? Half a pound.  I’m shocked it hasn’t been more to be truthful.

Stretch Marks? You must mean new ones. Since I have PLENTY of not-new ones.  Surely this pregnancy won’t NEED to add any more. (I will leave this answer up until I have any new stretch marks.  And I’ll keep hoping I never do!)

Sleep? It is never enough.  I’m tired from the moment I wake up until the moment I fall asleep again.  Really looking forward to the second tri energy.  Only a few more weeks!

Best Moment of the Week?  It had to do with food, I ate a toaster burger from Sonic.  And it was the best burger of my life.  And I’ve had this burger before.  But after watching too many Diners, Drive-Ins and Dives….a juicy burger with bacon and onion rings?  Perfection to my mouth parts.

Movement? Nope.

Gender?  A friend made her guess (first do to so!) this week of a boy.  Cody still feels it a boy.  When I think about it I think as great as I’ve felt on the sickness front…I’d be shocked if it were a girl.  But I really truthfully have no preference.

What I miss? I guess having any energy.

Symptoms: Total exhaustion.  And hunger. Oh so hungry.  I eat ever two hours or so….and I’m eating because my stomach is growling at me to EAT MOAR.  I told Cody that I may end up gaining 60 pounds.  This is my third time growing a baby and I’ve never been so hungry…and not so vomity.  Before if I ate a large BBQ potato…it didn’t matter because it wouldn’t stay down.  I never gained any weight in the first 4 months or so.  This time with everything staying down and my body demanding more food every couple hours…I may be unrecognizable come May.

What I’m looking forward to? 2nd tri energy.  I am so so tired.

Weekly Wisdom: Eat.  Just do it.

Milestones: Another week down!

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